tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-183240692024-03-05T08:13:06.870-08:00Ester's FeathersMusings on art, crappy neighbors, cats, dogs, and mostly: chickens.Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.comBlogger121125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-3226099523491812152011-01-15T18:41:00.000-08:002011-01-15T20:04:16.937-08:00<div align="center"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">My Shit's Fucked Up<img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 314px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5562608631880065842" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPET5W1oIT5EjZSPDoOSzv148XuKZgtIG-TRnEFCIScHVTiuMpeUa9R5NhG7cxtU3HKF7vzLt34_qoYYZ6QG2eM0k7dxSkfYOQ-w15pxWmmW1U6qIKWCVGRrSUgmcmR_el31okJA/s400/Ester+Fall+finished.JPG" /></span></strong></div><div align="justify">Well, not really. There is potential for things to be much, much worse than they are now. I just haven't processed this redundancy very well. It's my second nature to narrate a situation, as it's happening, for future use and I will mine this shit for something. As is, I've painted a bit but no where near where I would feel any degree of alacrity. As is, it's stopish-and-startish, in a loop. But I've developed a new passion for jewelery, always a good idea when you're on the dole. My new favorite things are old old drippy bead earrings, which I was delighted to learn are also known as Cha Cha earrings (although the term 'cha cha' seems adaptive to things overblown and well, oh shut up). On Christmas day, I had my best friends over and made them endure a Cha Cha earring show. Well, I made them dinner, too.</div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">The chicken sisters are well. I finished the Autumn version of Ester (<em>pictured above</em>) and am now working on Winter, along with a commission from a friend who is doing me a favor with the business, but she keeps hiring me to do things I've moved on from. In this instance, a dog. Commissions are always a source of much <em>shitfuckandpiss</em> with me, which demonstrates to me that I was always meant to have a day job of some sort. The lack of a job, day or otherwise, is a big black hole that sucks my attention and renders me enert. </div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">I also fell off that delicate little Queen Anne chair of a wagon, again, and drank back on all the weight I'd lost the previous months. I've now quit - a-fucking-gain - and am slowly deflating, as well as being able to stay up past nine o'clock. I let it slide, but that slide has been arrested.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-8359312018747416962010-10-22T09:39:00.000-07:002010-10-22T10:00:54.273-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Precious, dwindling time in the chicken workshop.<br /></div></strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5530911736895862898" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhu4GX_SCRnLys3DcZP4M-HkThTwdNMS6EX5SyUBXsU-TubGTkpiwunUBb7gsTjG-PXxyhp7zs-k6OrwaZq4QhyphenhyphenHjZ1SNEmseXEQ5eMR6RIaAMnEqBJ1A6Typ9wuJIvGws25Y7Buw/s400/chicken+workshop.JPG" /> <p align="justify">I've had little time to hole up in the studio this week, as I've been visiting various corporate possibilities, spewing words out of my word hole, sick of hearing the sound of my voice. Amazingly, I'm being called back for second, third, fourth, etc, interviews. Which is a job, all by itself. I come home from these exercises more knackered than at the end of any conventional workday. I have three days until I have to go in to Quintessential Seattle Company No. 1 for my fourth visit. Oh, just give me the fucking job, already.</p>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-26627715886257228602010-10-18T11:58:00.000-07:002010-10-18T19:41:56.569-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Fallow Fall.<img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5529462923628427858" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOjdl4_4EnO-TNAUovpnyB54duIWEq3XLXwGwNnuqI2tFYo9BGL0gNgyalUw52b46g2C0Bu0-8aHq4Te9c8GzD1uaXBN8zUCpJO2qCc19NnMrtu5wpYZV6Nk9IKFKkoouHEpchTg/s400/quiltandcat.JPG" /></strong></div><div align="justify">We've been having a very dry blue Fall here and its really throwing me off my game. It's not just that I feel I need to be out in all that blueness, which I do, but there are a lot of things that need to be done indoors, too (psssssssssssssthint: like <em>painting</em>!) and I stress about the need to do both and time is all <em>tick tick tick</em> and sometimes it just makes me spin my wheels. I do my best work when the weather outside is frightful. </div><div align="justify">I finished a lap quilt (well, actually two: the first one was ugly but functional but as soon as I saw it on my couch, I knew I'd never use it precisely because it was ugly). So, this new one is 50s barkcloth - a design attributed to Dali - with velvet, backed with fleece. I'm happy with it: it's a beautiful thing and very comforting. I just like a little sensuality in my comfort, is all. Like extra butter on the mashed potatoes.</div><div align="justify">I finally switched out my Spring quilt to my Fall one, even though our nights haven't been all that cold. This is fine with me, since Ester is going through her third fucking molt of the year. Apparently, the feather ratio readjustment makes her lose her equilibrium and she sways around like a drunk. I think it makes it hard to steer. Sometimes they'll all be running behind me and then they make a turn but Ester just keeps on going in the original direction. It's only slightly less distressing to watch for having seen it once before and then I thought she was dying. Even another chicken owner exclaimed "That chicken is <em>sick</em>!", but no, that's just Ester molting. Again.</div><div align="justify">I have a busy week with interviews. A necessary evil. At least I'm refreshed enough (not really) to dunk myself in some new fresh hell. I think now I understand on some new level the importance of work. At the end of the day, you've probably changed nothing, except how someone consumes something, but it is something about the hive, brushing up against it, even if it's just to have a bit of road rage getting there and back - its all an exchange of energy and you alway, ALWAYS, (and its always so easy to forget) wield the power to influence the positive and negative factors of that singular, everyday experience. So, wish me luck. Because I give one shitty interview.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-36976109530268652962010-09-21T13:17:00.000-07:002010-09-21T13:47:49.694-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Sun shining and big-ass pile of compost mocking</strong> <img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 272px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5519463885314251266" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsATfh21jzB1ZevQnEbE_ShUz5NK9rkzLs7_BiZxGU6BPWix1N_9jDEJYGYa81lWrjSlmRVCxFlhSaFVhsK1p29ruI_obANych165u7sb-QG4tu9tRjncGYWOttq_7j2OjtJ1LVg/s400/knickerbockers.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">After three thousand trips to Home Depot to get bags of mulch, garden soil and compost, I finally broke down and had a yard of compost delivered to my driveway. The next day, a little ahead of schedule, monsoon season kicked in and now it's a big smelly mountain of mud. And now the sun is shining and if I listen carefully, I can hear that mound crooning to me softly to get off my expanding ass and get it distributed. The problem is, around this time, I completely lose my gardening boner, so I'll just have to shame myself into it at some point. This morning I've been busy making orange-cinnamon-nut rolls and that's pretty much the extent of my accomplishments. The quilt I started is muttering in the next room and a big painting of Beulah I started is whispering taunts, but I might just crack open Jonathan Franzen's new tome and go outside and read with the chickens.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-40756304973864813712010-09-19T09:53:00.000-07:002010-09-19T10:18:03.247-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Getting back in the saddle again</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 311px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5518669076929630386" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQmWs-lJBf4iLuK1fOU4Htc16YLma-zskOc-VHq1Wh4fZG_kX_juHZeY_nJ0IbDT0-FQQ87RutLGu4eDtRLoyN4k-6JGOxprRR0W5EMurH1xuVV0IqwJR7whPckOvL3791ZpSTVA/s400/farmersmarket.JPG" /></div><p align="justify">This has proven to be a difficult saddle to climb back into. In some ways it mirrors my real-life attempts at getting on to that thing on a horse's back. Pretty unsuccessful. I was always better at bare backing.....</p><p align="justify">It's been an odd couple of months. My last day of employment was June 30th and then six foggy weeks of waiting for Lulu's condition to deteriorate. Her final days were filled with her favorite (pricey) chew bones and on my part, guilt, dread and tenderness. When she did begin to fail, it was quick and awful. The house was quiet and strange for a few days. The cats slept in places they'd never before favored. Then they started playing and now every morning there is much kitty galloping that never happened with Lulu around to police activities. And it was about two weeks after she was gone that I came home from running errands and had a stark feeling of peace and relief that I wasn't to be greeted with slobber and hair and unremitting need. </p><p align="justify">I love dogs, but Lulu was the lesson that I need to love them from afar. I've never connected with dogs the way I have with cats (and chickens). You have this idea of yourself as how you want to be, and then, often, there is the disparate picture of what you actually are. I have wanted and gotten many things in my life and so many of them have been things I only thought I wanted. Through all this, though, I did right by Lulu and gave her the best life I knew how. I do miss her and her gentle ghost occasionally wafts into the room and she is part and parcel of my life and what I am. She was a good dog, but then, they all are.</p><p align="justify">It turns out that losing my job abruptly took all wind out of my sails. Additionally, it was summer, which is never a creatively productive time. But I have to tell you, I have done fucking diddly squat in two months. Now that the rains have begun, I hope to be able to focus and it's not like I've done <em>nothing</em> (for instance, I've read like a motherfucker). I have finished a painting and am working on two more and I've begun a quilt. And I gardened - a lot. Big projects that involved digging and schlepping and ultimately got me to shed some pounds and get some muscle tone back. </p><p align="justify">Now that I put it all on paper, as it were, I can see I've not been that idle. But it has been odd. As much as I do NOT want to join the work force again, I know I have to and would rather do so before my little cushion runs out. I realize that my day job is part of my creative process - it gives me something to push up against and apparently that's necessary. Hm. Who knew.</p>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-11826850751136627172010-07-25T11:01:00.000-07:002010-07-26T12:37:23.936-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Old sister summer keeps rolling along</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5497906111284544194" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0d0v29dP3P8pILcBS0eeEGPDnTWGxQ8Ckzv5stKWsCBW2-2vsB5B3wzKb5vj4s1Yg3U9eXJrILiBDhL_WaOaqKKEmzRi6o1n5M-P0WP3lmJF3tmZVeqmu8BNs6JBACeyU4I4B_w/s400/judge+beulah.JPG" /></div><p align="justify">Lulu turned a corner several days ago. I opened the studio in the morning and her diaper sat on the bed, where she'd successfully discarded it in the night and upon examination, her poor yoni which has been like it's own little Eli Roth movie, had finally stopped bleeding. Her demeanor has shifted as well, probably due in no small part to no longer having to sport a fucking diaper. So, she's scheduled for surgery next Thursday. I would have liked to have had the time leading up to it to be with her, but I've been called back to the evil salt mine to finish up my last week, so I'll be sitting in my chair, doing what I've been doing for the last 7 years (fuck all), which will no doubt make the final spring of freedom more resounding. </p><p align="justify">So, summer moves on. It's been hot but not ridiculous. Ester is molting, <em>again</em>, but even though she looks awful, this molt doesn't seem to be wringing everything out of her, as past ones have. I tell her she's beautiful and she totally buys it. Women. <img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 298px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5498301064520163170" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJSEUZqFGpZPftZJoR5p5K86XIsDvvJcgVd7ApjThwOuhxww59xhImME8W63Gmb-YuuBBWVQ6bSrtUjbYLDqKIiqjkVXmEAKgLEhctIghYvEDos6aQRVr41dPr5p7t_1UOEoe-gw/s400/night_of_the_hunter.jpg" />I watched Night of the Hunter last night. It had been about 10 years since I watched it last and it still holds up as one completely over the top yet still expertly reined in movies ever made. If you've never seen it: c'mon! </p>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-41434323393547655122010-07-21T11:28:00.000-07:002010-07-21T11:49:50.619-07:00<div align="center"> <strong>Another day, more adult diapers</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5496428701909038498" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4cPqlc-_cB8PsbuABTaFLT24NKsJA5lIrPzt2i0xtnz2oBJgkbA3KpjzNXcoL5U070KPyJQAeZEIin1H9-2DhLDwJIk3I9LwnA4lt20JTqep933yl6bc2YNJlWQNXnDOvfoxfOA/s400/lulufeet.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">Lulu is actually doing much better today, so I am thoroughly bemused. And vets, like their human-treating counterparts, as usual fail spectacularly when most needed. But for now, we're here, together. </div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-32938080882994096482010-07-19T15:06:00.000-07:002010-07-19T15:45:08.042-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Ain't no why, so don't ask.</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5495742549290290674" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhkT3DkXQmseufN1z78jRfvN0uQudVW6wrvqAnE1w13X6P2dNBHtYLsFGooIO8ikGuuXTQdahy3qQzv25IH9fsTrOu8LZOvImExM-b2cEnHpKFYvFpLtqRrmDqFHGC0pksZg5lepw/s400/lulucloseup.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">This morning found me far less sanguine about the whole situation as I opened up Lulu's door (she sleeps in my studio, on her own twin bed, after several years of sleeping with the canine equivalent of a snory, stinky old man finally got to me) and she bounded out, freed of her adult diaper and bleeding dark and steady. I stopped to brush my teeth before wrestling another diaper onto her and off we went, to the vet, where we spent the next two hours in a small room which looked as if a massacre had occurred after we left. So, it's cancer, and it's galloping. We left loaded down with things to rehydrate her and clear the infection she now has and a bunch of other shit and on Thursday, rather than surgery, they're going to take x-rays to gauge it's progress and it's very likely, it seems to me, that all those things I've said I'd do when she was gone - like throw out the stinky dog chair - will probably happen sooner rather than later. Again, it's sort of a blessing that I have this time off and extra resources, but why these things always seem to pile on - well, there is no why. So don't ask.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-3708459788989023712010-07-10T20:48:00.000-07:002010-07-18T20:40:10.326-07:00<div align="center"><strong>What is the what</strong> <img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5492491302262496034" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj3guQ7sAB_n3co9CP5a3qvU3MRbFZ6fyisqaFiJ4wu-bAA4rq-RtyW-udcZT9hzawmbMl4jqS9tgiH4s_fVgDxXxI1kNHTlaLobM6anwa_kpm7853eFpXDwVQ9FH__rd97Osytug/s400/estergod1.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">The end of my second week as a woman of no means. And that's just <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">disingenuous</span>, because I have many means, just no steady income any more. But I do have a very nice (in my very humble world) little bit of padding coming down the pike, shortly, more than I'm accustomed to in my by-the-seat-of-<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">you's</span> usual mode of travel. My first week was a heat wave and a back that went out after sort of telegraphing it's intentions to me the previous week. I lay outside on my dolled up chaise lounge, with the chickens more often than not gathered round, preening and sometimes (okay, only Butters) napping. They all now hit the hay at 8. They've had it. Fed up with sunny freedom, thank you very fucking much. So, a couple of weeks, assessing and then I just decided a few days in, fuck it, it's summer. Try to have some fucking fun. What a brilliant opportunity, there for the figuring-out-of and me, all here and ready to do so. But today sort of steered me away from just idyllic hedonism to something a little starker: </div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">Lulu's tumor. I notice it walking her. Some pinkness, I go in for a closer look: her vulva is swollen. The next day I called the vet and the soonest was Saturday, four days away. Lulu isn't favoring it but it's clearly all wrong. At the vet they take a biopsy and she bleeds and won't stop and they finally glue her up, and we set a surgery date (now, with the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">severance</span>, I'll have some money and it's text book My Life (that usual cancelling out of extra money + new crisis.) And I'm okay with it. I'm going to be around for her, I don't have some stupid worthless piece of shit job to go to and pretend to do crap, and pretend to give a shit about it, while she's here home bleeding alone, so I feel in a strange state of grace. Today, I purchased my first (oh, but probably not the last, old woman) pack of adult diapers and have spent the day making Lulu suffer through variable successes at making them stay on and to keep her from getting blood everywhere and from licking herself dry. More vet consultation and biopsy results and we'll see how she's doing. It's okay to go, Kid, and your time at this address wasn't that crappy, was it? I think, as usual, I have underestimated the size of the vacancy to come. But there is still the summer ahead of us and our problems are few. I hope I see it through with Lulu, with her sewn up lady bits. We'd have that in common.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-63649767758531871922010-06-21T11:48:00.000-07:002010-06-21T11:58:03.643-07:00<div align="center"> <strong>After the Dance</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5485300991591048914" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi7XX2eVxSeKX1jN7D5KdUyExwiR48xMo4AB0fngMGPIcN15Ka66UNkNhT8AON70EDoWxKA9vnw3BUTqnnqnkgRj8VNgeEsAjHrL816p5xm6rKBJmIsRxCHbgZeaxsGjyjGPNnTNg/s400/robin.jpg" /></div><div align="justify">On Saturday, I held the third Waggle Dance. I discovered, belatedly, that all the prep I had done for the thing, the bulk of it garden-oriented, had made me too tired for the actual event. Oh, old age, you crack me up! I sang alright, but my hostess banter was a lame stain that ran down my shirt and puddled around my feet. Apologies, audience. But a lot of the labor went to things that will be done for the next one, in August (like my Rube Goldberg-<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">ish</span> lighting system and the velvet curtains and the gardens are DONE, I tell you). The rest of the summer (sidebar: today being the first day of said season, it's worth noting it's gray with a promise of rain and this morning I had the heat on in the house) will be spent swanning from chaise lounge to hammock to <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">Adirondack</span> chair and back, drinking cool beverages, reading and hanging with the flock. Special thanks to my guests who performed and I look forward to the next installment. For which I will be rested up.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-15908662253401536002010-06-07T14:21:00.000-07:002010-06-07T14:37:55.417-07:00<div align="center"><strong>An Indoor/Outdoor Weekend</strong><br /></div><p><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 288px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5480145227017296514" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgEgo458FwEdVK6J8-t6YFdhy-p2H-EmN9HbzE1r80YvRdwmyAphwWKcWx98rafXPRext13m4V-eJ5eTDZy1zwPHI3hJg0JErshZ4ME0ZVS82swfnHSvswpOXO4dqgGnEoYoQehaw/s400/buttersdvd1.JPG" /></p><p align="justify">One for each day. On Saturday, I woke up to a blue sky that has been making itself scarce of late. I quickly did all the indoor chores and then I was outside in the yard(s) for about 7 hours. I nearly put out an eye! Who says gardening isn't for thrill seekers? That night, after a very uninspired white-bean-spaghetti-pinenut-parmeson-cheese dish (eh), I spent some time rehearsing my songs for The Waggle Dance and managed to finally put down lyrics for the Artie Shaw number I'm singing over. It's been 10 years since I put pen to paper, lyrically, and that moment when the right words fit to the right place, well, it's pretty satisfying. After I was truly read to blob out for the night, I watched the last episode of Season Two of True Blood.<br /><br /><em>Dear HBO:<br /><br />Fuck you. </em></p><p align="justify"><em>I waited a<strong> full year</strong> to watch the second season of True Blood on DVD. I even went out and bought the sub-literate blocks of pulp it is based on -</em> all of them <em>- while waiting for you to get around to releasing Season 2. Was it worth the wait? Hell no.<br /><br />That is all.<br /></em><br />That said, I'll wait a week and watch it all again.</p><p align="justify">On Sunday, it rained all day and I parked it at the easle and applied embroidery floss to my newest Ester painting. I was very ill-tempered by the end of 6+ hours of work after I saw how little I'd accomplished. But a day in the garden and then a day in the studio is actually the perfect weekend. So, um, <em>thanks</em>, Universe!</p>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-90702596067119272302010-06-04T14:13:00.000-07:002010-06-04T14:42:01.690-07:00<div align="center"> <strong>Superenigmatix*</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 304px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5479033015861799298" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhmyQ0gGmpBUWB3e_cpLqjlOsCRHLyuuItAKNYKJOh_RmrRc5p__7KVXpmZ1qgN4fOUBDqKph9sA_18PKJmBiNKXYw98feudY4AN39-twL8WDtvwQONVzPagdUd199o9mpopO_Y6Q/s400/spring+ester.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">I have been without a computer for two days at home and I'm a little stunned by what a large sink hole that seems to have left. I now watch tv, write, and listen to music via this metal box and when it's snatched away, well, <em>then what</em>? Weather-wise, it refuses to do anything but rain (which is pretty much what it did last year at this time, then we had the longest driest hottest summer since life began, so I hope that's not going to be a repeat, too), so I'm house-bound after work. The book I'm reading is only bed/bathroom fodder, and I can't even practice singing, as all the cuts are ON LINE. I had the computer fixed by one of our IT guys at work yesterday, brought it home, and it promptly went into some weird loop of log-on pages and never did allow me to get in. So, back it came and I guess I'll schlep my work laptop home tonight if they can't fix the problem today. Frankly, I'm far more comfortable with less technology rather than more, in most cases, but shit, a tool is a tool.</div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify">Dinsdale is feeling better, but still a little under the weather, which he conveyed to me by means of a puddle of piss and a couple of turds in his favorite spot in the kitchen. Poor little guy. I yelled at him, but my heart wasn't in it. <br /></div><div align="center"><em><span style="font-size:78%;">*A term - loosely coined from Bebop Deluxe - I use when I experience some kind of a cluster fuck, usually technical.</span></em></div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-31767051785187468622010-06-02T11:47:00.000-07:002010-06-02T12:12:09.016-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Wet and shitty morning</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5478250352577142642" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKuGZwM6KjO9skPMXjkzZ2ofrBJ5uCdIzWhgHkErqKTgbVDu0mlWSrFKhIEMWmoi_MVY1pnFvtrtlPQaKmO0jxuNV67qABM1oWV85yJqOL7Y-f4Oh3byxE880Np3-IhG77cILhfg/s400/buttersoutoffocus.jpg" /></div><div align="justify">With sniper-like precision, Dinsdale, Monsieur Hair, has necessitated a trip to the vet when I am stone broke. A restful drive of 30 minutes of piteous mewing and cat panting and drivers in Seattle who always seem to be flummoxed by <strong>rain</strong> and Mommy wants a Valium. Dropped him off and they called me a bit later: it's not dire - a swollen anal sac, ew - but it involves a bunch of shit that involves money. Oh well. If anything really awful happened to Mr. Hands, I would be bereft, so I am thankful that it was just this, and thankful that <strong>I</strong> don't have an anal sac which could require draining at some point in my future. </div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">Also, I sent my next Waggle Dance invitations out and immediately my core 'family' bailed. I will take this as the Bigger Picture showing me that I don't need a reliable warm cushion of love and acceptance, that it's time to graduate to cooler and perhaps higher climes. I decided when I initally conceived of the idea of a Salon/Workshop, that if it was just me, then I would just sing for me. The practice I'm putting in is really reaping results and I'm starting to get a little itchy for good sound systems, good lighting and beyond the lights, a sea of flint and potential sparkage.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-85367058670742627262010-05-25T13:09:00.000-07:002010-05-25T13:24:48.725-07:00<div align="center"><strong>One thing is not like the others.</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 292px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475302478086819346" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjyR_lfV7i65bSS3L2LU8kCjzt1fBxAcm8IvlqyvRAV7RJr2ERzkaWJ6DavgU92ZOgQKKHPGti9av-NlaoXBy4oBngkAu7pwyDZNjU5XGHXf66HkPTxqPH4D-vOtcbDtqHAPghSKQ/s400/motionsensor.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">Since I'm a fragile little old lady, demure and retiring in my ways, and living alone and helpless <em>(yeah, just try it</em>), I finally figured it was time to step up the home front security and installed a motion sensor. By 'installed' I mean 'set on the ground'. It scared the bejesus out of the chickens when they heard it and frankly, it's so fucking obnoxious, I'm hard pressed to use it even with the irritant factors on both side of me. But probably after more hijinx either from Girlyman and Pegger on one side and the Alzheimer's Hospice on the other (which is ramping up for some summer fun with the inhabitants crawling out of their windows and setting off fire alarms), and after I've heard the ice cream/crack dealer truck's rendition of Turkey-in-the-Straw for the nine zillionith time, I'll probably just turn it on some night. And enjoy. </div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-59845842409160224702010-05-19T14:48:00.000-07:002010-05-19T15:21:27.660-07:00<div><div><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjO2HY7df9EXRPlkyt7mrPiXNhYaSZevslSWAdqh8iOo-nqBMzmQOB9ePkEa9wtG5S3jCfod2MNEx5xUwSfadrySgavDQcmv-DYUtLFCb4RvdL6taxINNsDiez8Xr95yNFDRdni4g/s1600/frontgardenafter.JPG"></a><div align="center"><strong>Loathe Thy Neighbor</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5473109364557973026" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvuIjPpdQELiMY2hf1VD8WCvx6sudtGPMSRpvl6kkOogL1r57l4NX-uAv6PsfW3I7CecHaf1Uzv7VAMt6gReczRptSdSs9HEnLZdzEh7Doyl_xI3JBCkXfPsUml6UmtPu0av3Ojw/s400/frontgardenafter.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">I just had 11 glorious days away from the Paycheck Generator. Usually when taking time off, I set forth grand goals which I then feel shitty about for not having achieved. This time, I just had one task and it was one that took up the bulk of the time, but mission accomplished. This will be my fourth summer in this house and the front yard has been an area that I have not embraced and have sort of let go to shit. The previous inhabitants had a completely different vocabulary of plantings than I do and this year I just decided, fuck it, and if it offended me, I plucked it out. In the process, my wonky back, weakened by my hulking over the keyboard all day, got better, I got some sun and when I went to bed at night, I felt - righteously - tired. Next door, GirlyMan and The Pegger, whose every utterance is delivered with the conviction and projection of <strong>The Word,</strong> had me seething for the first couple of days, but since I buy earplugs in bulk, they're not scarce around my house and they did the trick. Last year, between them, the insidious ice cream truck and the guy over at the Alzheimer's hospice with Buckets 'O Phlegm, I was often driven in to the house. But no mores, I tells ya! No. Mores.<br /><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 318px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5473108009800304066" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzESnVllTP0p3LlhRN41mfO2cGkg27aZG4o3T9mOFvK9I9BbZAkZ472zaYeIHmt_Yc5JxP2IM0JqFNgf4mH5TRudbyY-ibqU-Nki4PVN7ahq3kK7QvWTBc-m7pyHijFbh60lAulQ/s400/butters+with+dog+hair.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">The weather was perfect most days and the chickens spent all day rototilling and over this last weekend, their freakish moratorium on laying ended with Ester, who produced a dark (they're always darker when they had a bit of a hiatus) brown egg, while Beulah stood a foot away and screamed at her the entire time. Beulah's eggs are still falling out of her, shell-less, so she has reason to be bitter, I suppose. But with just one of them laying again, it's a huge relief. It really doesn't take a lot to make it all right in my world.<img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 412px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 311px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5473107999692517698" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifvlDYRL6Kno1iVwSsuaE3aLfv5PwfwvbWFTDQQBGbL3TzGZqAbqfb_ZjVTKe7iAe2PQ-93R9aj5omgbPtwo4EQoHPCEelyrnW3FXTNUA4X5qA2Jx4OoVqnoBC3DN06ip2JDlVPQ/s400/esterMay19.JPG" /></div></div></div></div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-23172919333183958222010-05-04T12:09:00.000-07:002010-05-04T12:35:09.505-07:00<div align="center"><strong>As The Chicken Turns.<img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 370px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5467498673153717650" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhscdj0paV4pUX6-NDEjq4NcuqXTq7aOpQEetH1JpyCjGJS_GCHcWvJOiB0XlXa2b3yw4zFuEpbMf-XcDD44ctnAl4UC-4SdYm99Ph4AauI6oHb7JuIFmHUJ6cDWxKZanVvroGWzA/s400/sammychair1.JPG" /></strong></div><div align="justify">It's been a crazy fortnight or so in my universe. Actually, a good week of it was just decompression. On Saturday, April 24, I held my first 'official' Waggle Dance, my musical salon/workshop (when I told a person at work I had started a salon in my home they said <em>I didn't know you did hair</em>.....). While attendance was basically just family, it was a wonderful evening full of sweetness, acceptance and overall fabulousness. The next day there was a real slackening in the tightness inside me that has been there for so long I'd forgotten it's not natural. So, there will be Waggle Dances every two months and I've already begun researching new numbers to perform.</div><div align="justify">The chicken sisters continue to worry. The only egg action is the occasional egg-less one that falls out of Beulah (and is promptly dispatched by Beulah and Esters, with Butters looking on wistfully). I've got oyster shells available to them all the time now, not just occasionally. On Sunday, I opened their coop and Butters didn't want to come out. She just stood there, with her tail drooping. Not good. I took her up to the porch, away from the other two, who can be no fun to be around if you're a chicken who's feeling crappy (I would assume). I thought this was it and all the other plans for the day were dashed and I spent it with my pretty girl who is barely a year old and dying far too soon. I held her on my lap on the back porch for an hour or so, crying great buckets of snot and freezing my ass off. I moved her to the house, where I propped my feet up on my desk with her in my lap and attempted to read and then just finally took her to bed with me. I put her on a towel and petted the curve of the back of her head. She would doze off and I would doze off and wake up to find her just silently regarding me. We spent about 4-5 hours there and she finally started getting restless and I took her out on the back deck and she crapped a phosphorescent green crap and suddenly was her old self.</div><div align="justify"><strong>So:</strong> I will endeavor to remember that chickens, just like me, just like kitteh-brothers or the sister-dog, have days where you just don't feel up to snuff. It does not mean THE END IS NIGH!!!!!! So, I'm happy to say Butters seems completely her old self, limping is gone, just overall good. They are still not laying one damn egg, but I reckon they'll get around to it when they bloody well please.</div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">Last night they all came in the house and when I called Butters, she came right to me and wanted in my lap. This is a first. I guess since we've shared a bed, we're now officially BFFs. </div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-28442858477935650302010-04-22T12:56:00.000-07:002010-04-22T13:25:17.167-07:00<div align="center"><strong>The $168 Chicken</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 310px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5463054139475396034" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCV6j0nVC8iQCFjkzY0aAvwBJiX9Msk3Y9t7GaL21X5-Nl8UPa9gT0tCy6FCmpqP3Ij6eNW_YumN6gk2q3YwxH9x3Fquf8MOE6MVbCy8wHrdJ71kaiA_kokkhCKghBUsji_cddAQ/s400/chicken+workings.jpg" /></div><div align="justify">So, vet day arrives. I put Butters in the cat carrier and drive. I have to say, chickens are a lot easier to ferry back and forth than say, <em>cats</em>. They generally hunker down and don't utter a peep. After the requisite wrong turns that seem inherent for any new location (for me), I arrive at the Exotic Animal Vet. The receptionist was the kind I love, especially when I'm somewhere for the first time. I'm here for a 2:30, with Butters, I say and she just looks at me. So, I go sit down. There's a lone guy in the tiny waiting room, with a small parrot on his shoulder. I'm sure he's looking at my chicken and thinking 'fffttt'. The receptionist rouses herself from her singular catatonia and gives me a clipboard with some crap to fill out, asking for spouses and family members and anyone else they can hound for the bill. After a fairly uneventful vet exam I go back out to the waiting room to wait for the results of the fecal float (which conjures up images of root beer and chicken shit). Some hipster dude comes in with a laundry sack containing some mystery animal. A mountainous man comes in to retrieve his Amazon parrot and I overhear (hard not to) the bill being discussed: around $900. Finally, the doctor comes out and says the crap tested positive for coccidiosis, which is no big, but it's better not to have it. So, antibiotics for Butters (translated: they don't have a clue why she's limping), stuff to put in their water and $168 poorer, I left, blinking. Oh well. I've decided that what I don't know about chickens, I'm going to learn so that I don't feel so mystified every time something goes wrong with them. But in the end, I have a new catch phrase. When someone posits an unanswerable question, I will now say: Well, that's the $168 chicken, now isn't it?</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-68038180253669675492010-04-19T14:24:00.000-07:002010-04-19T14:34:56.847-07:00<div align="center"><strong> More flack with the flock</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 291px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5461963930262579570" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEik7EIVTP623c-6D-fzaB92IzcZqgMiFtO9elIEFUF87N5VnSSywJ0riw3SVDs3pzUEUn_EdW6-tnchYQ45O22ahMQBV4POKr6ldWeDyJTxDnTqTQ88jzTaPgVRee9BIRIy8Z3fYw/s400/butterslookingthrulegs.jpg" /></div><div align="justify">Apparently, after last weekend's fretting about Ester and Beulah, respectively, Butters was feeling neglected, so she decided to develop a limp. This has happened with Ester before, but it cleared up in a day. Butter's been gimping around for 2, so today I made my first appointment with the only (so far....) vet in Seattle who sees chickens. So, hopefully, they will know their stuff and I will have a resource for future issues. As is, I feel like I've been in an intensive animal husbandry class but forgot to study. Or something. </div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-54985119746894086782010-04-16T09:49:00.000-07:002010-04-18T15:16:49.621-07:00<div align="center"><strong>No thing is 'just' anything <img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5460806507564241938" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 303px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSEBCONmyAN47i747-vQcFfp3ukFe50m2SmiVFVD7UV1rzSaGrCwTbiXJPhEnub2TvF2QPTMrhpipvYdacQGM50PmHMXkTd4_CoirS7MDdmEMSQR6G08Pnms934I1fAtelBOpJjQ/s400/estersteppin1.jpg" border="0" /></strong></div><div align="center"></div><div align="justify">From the beginning, Ester's appearance in my life was clearly <a href="http://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867"><span style="color:#ffcc33;">significant</span></a>. I am of the school of There Are No Accidents. She was as meant for me at that moment as I was for her. I have no doubt that I saved her life and in ways that still remain too elusive to articulate, she has been saving mine in our nearly two years together, or perhaps <em>trying</em> to. </div><div align="justify">When a drunk stops drinking, that's not the end of it. To really step over that threshold to something sane and even sacred, you have to acknowledge you're not the end all, be all. As Tyler Durden said: <em>You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else.</em> So in that vein, I am Ester and Ester is me. There is no distinction. NO THING IS <strong>JUST</strong> ANYTHING. Ester is not<em><strong> just</strong></em> a chicken anymore than I'm <em><strong>just</strong></em> a human. This I have come to understand and since Ester is the messenger, I choose to regard her as a higher power to myself. Yes, I know she's a chicken. But she's not just a chicken. In seeing this and understanding this, I have for the first time experienced the sacred, the spiritual, the something outside of myself and out of all ourselves yet contained in every one of us. Ester is God. </div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-26015382478278973482010-04-15T12:28:00.000-07:002010-04-17T21:21:10.667-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Gone fishin' but now I'm back.<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5460448443446704322" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 448px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 256px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjp7LsubD6N0JixeCBr_eWqb8vM45Wq6E9W1JYCQqEKv0QdFKsdq0T-AC-ZQmaCA3s1c4DUnwRecUyWhtz1mHRUBo67RO7DM4_Tm7kc8iUR8GuvAYORLukJfLTLI04VA-Sv6O8hzQ/s400/esterunderbrush2.JPG" border="0" /></strong></div><p align="justify">I apologize for my half-assed posting. I just haven't felt it lately. When my blog is boring me, I can only imagine the reaction of those few who read it (or probably don't anymore, since I've been away from the table for so long).<br /></p><div align="justify">I've been sort of mulling over what exactly I want this effort to be about. And I think Saturday's events sort of pointed my pointy head in the right direction. All in all, it was a terrible weekend, all chicken-centric. Saturday, Ester, who has stopped laying and begun leaving poops around that looked like they had egg yolk <em><strong>in</strong></em> them, just sat around with her feathers fluffed, sleeping periodically. <em>'Full of sleep'</em> is what another chicken friend calls it, when they are about to die. So, there was a lot of sobbing and almost a purchase of a bottle of wine in there. <strong>She didn't die and I didn't drink</strong>. <img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5460456569992128722" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 434px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1ewInqId1Abu_vae79cHCuH7J4BB8Ull2DSczXs0rS9zIDrPyq1BChWe2TqcLLpw5rqfRBe4pBVtraBIvXEx0RquxyeWrA8WErepSntpMgtUzEGPn3Tfk1_xcVh6y_XWAOv8muA/s400/ester&butterssunbathing.JPG" border="0" />By the beginning of the evening, she seemed her old self: then I realized all the time I'd spent agonizing over her, Beulah had her own potential life threatening situation going on. She spent most of the day Saturday and all day Sunday on the nest. She routinely has issues with her laying and I keep hoping she'll go through the chicken change or something, and just stop. But of course, the fear is them being egg-bound, whereby the egg can break inside them and the shell cut up their insides. Saturday, I'm online scrutinizing pictures of chicken shit (for the record, this egg-in-crap seems to be an anomaly) and Sunday, I'm looking for things to do if your chicken is egg bound. One, is to lube up a finger - <em>sigh</em> - and stick it up their vent and see if you can direct the egg to where it's supposed to be. So, I got out the Vaseline (I would've used Slippery Stuff, but didn't want her to get the wrong idea) and it took me a little while to figure out where was what and I was reminded of my early forays into girl sex (upshoot: not for me) where I didn't know where the hell anything was, it was just all a warm sea of mush. Well, pretty similiar with chickens. More than warm: hot. I couldn't feel any egg, Beulah sat curious and still for the whole procedure - occasionally making a soft bra-<em>rooo?</em> noise. Much hand washing later, I decided to put her in a warm bath, as that's another recommendation, as it's supposed to relax them. So, we did that, in the kitchen sink, for about 10 minutes and then Beulah started to get antsy to get out. Then I did some blow drying and towel drying and she was quite a good sport about it all and in the bathwater I found a rubbery egg shell. She'd passed one of these the week before. I've fed them oyster shells for calcium but everything seems a bit off. Even Butters, who used to be relied upon for one a day, is now laying 2-3 eggs a week. Aside from that weirdness, and Ester's sleepy Saturday, they seem fine.</div><br /><div align="justify">During all this, I'm reading Mary Karr's memoior, Lit, about being a drunk. She ends up finding God, then becoming Catholic, no less, so we part there. But to not be a dry drunk, you do have to identify a higher power and then supplicate. </div><div align="justify">This is where Ester comes in. </div><div align="justify">More tomorrow.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-18197847621285454552010-04-01T08:36:00.000-07:002010-04-01T09:00:20.141-07:00<div align="center"><strong>One cat's craps is another chicken's crack.</strong><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5455193594132808114" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgy4ZC4mWscz0rChv7fBMVY2pAggNNjEwMurK-u56o6y3ZcvKy5ABkO0JZ4q5VVlwZmGZSTM0hm1eTYfeKJILPtC8JYqYAMp0x1sBSWA33hDcHtpMY5JCpbu34jI-9tgv4RI4Ak6w/s400/baby+food.jpg" border="0" /></div><div align="justify">Occasionally Dinsdale gets the squirts and as he's a long haired cat, it's a situation you want to stop, immediately. One thing that works is baby food: a day or so on that, and things solidify. Both cats find it delicious but the chickens just go insane. The stuff smells worse than regular cat food (I often wish I could convert the cats to vegan, but I can already see the movie: they would hound me relentlessly until I caved and flung a can of grisly substance at them), but the jars are great for mixing and storing paint. </div><div align="justify">The weather has been typically Spring in Seattle: bipolar. And it's effects are somewhat manic/depressive as well. Sunshine = the car practially starts itself and drives instinctively to the nearest nursery. Clouds and rain = hunker inside and paint. A day that combines all three makes me feel like Sybil. The green and the green and the green.......</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-50884384178217635162010-03-24T13:36:00.000-07:002010-03-24T14:01:35.171-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Happy Birthday, sort of, to me</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 273px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5452302099916447378" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtZTUlohcDC_3gg_naUg97JNdOc6V5OSYpVzE-xFyYdDzYo0gaukmtrUGyMcPgXF4YgFjHg3UiGrRiOS3XixFNIZwp6S67ZdgiiIDEJ7K8HAfXW-zlCt85VOwL06qgx_83rCJPhw/s400/euphorbiawithchickens.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">In a dream last night, someone asked me how long it had been since I stopped drinking and I really couldn't tell them. In the morning, I realized that I really had no count of days, which has been pretty standard in Sobriety Attempts 1,2 and 3. So I checked, and it was 6 months on Monday. In so many ways, this trip has been far different from the others. For one, for the first couple-three months, it was really Mrs.-Crazy-Toad's-Wild-Ride-Which-You-Will-Immediately-Be-On-As-Well-As-Soon-As-You-Make-Contact-With-Her. No fun for anybody. In the half year of ruminating on this and many other things, it occurs to me that the hungry, hungry <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">drunky</span> hippo inside sort of lurched out as soon as the drink stopped and flailed around in a bad temper and then finally stomped off. Then things got a little more managable, but I was still Old Faithful, a fountain of rage, seemingly bottomless, until suddenly I was not. And there have been times in the last several weeks that I have experienced moments of profound happiness. This is a boat I'm not going to rock.</div><div align="justify">On Saturday, a friend from out of town - also an alcoholic, but still practicing because you know, he's in <em>control </em>- ahem - called and was so drunk I couldn't wait to put the phone down. I feel no proclivity to prescribe or even counsel: when someone is in their 60s, they and they alone are in charge of the rest of their lives. Which doesn't mean it doesn't sadden me terribly - it does, because he's such a marvelous creature and a joy to be around: sober. Which hasn't been for a while now.</div><div align="justify">Anyway, this morning, listening to NPR and now the sabre-rattling (more like rattle rattling) of the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">Repubicunts</span>, I've decided I'm going to get ready to music from now on. I just don't like where it takes me - hi<span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-error">ssssssssssss</span>: anger - and I'm happy Barry pulled it through, but the <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">subsequent</span> <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_4" class="blsp-spelling-error">douchbaggery</span> I can miss. So - that's my reward for 6 months of being on this fragile wagon.</div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-79893344719618865882010-03-22T12:39:00.000-07:002010-03-22T12:55:17.809-07:00<div align="center"><strong>That Infernal Vernal Equinox</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 275px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5451545231236466194" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEDHDfcjTfdXNHLHdZx7BpSPE7LB5sip3SADAvTdC6ruQ_B90yB0tPPojvfg2aYi_WGXcfERgTbgZvhRADQaEXXEUt_dECPWrXiD7PNvr-P3TFZmZUcHpkDIQsEbwSsut8vUm7sw/s400/whitechicken.JPG" /> <div align="justify">The first day of Spring was spectacular. In the mid-sixties, with a little haze over an otherwise completely blue sky, lots and lots of chicken time (Ester and Butters will now come onto my lap with encouragement - Beulah is having NONE of it, <em>no-thank-you-very-much,-but-I'd-still-very much-like-some-cheese</em>). Of course, with nice days out come the power tools and the mowers and weed whackers, but that didn't even bother me. A friend came over and we just sat and jawed. I was telling him what a pain in the ass my little black cat Sammy was (make no mistake, I love him dearly, but he can be one of the most annoying creatures I've ever been around). Sammy is all about the butt-hole and the mouth - his, rather. He spends long, luxurious spells alternately licking and <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-error">flehming</span>. Which makes his oral tendencies - he has to mouth everything, all the time and his standard greeting (if you let him get close enough) is to shove his mouth in yours - all the more unpalatable. As I was telling my friend this, as if to demonstrate, Sammy got up on the coffee table and mouthed the lip of my near-beer bottle - See!? I tell my friend: Just like That! - and I go to remove him and he did this sort of paralytic <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-error">spazz-out</span> and ended up knocking over my <strong>very hard to find</strong> Red Wing chartreuse bowl and I watched in slow-mo as it fell to the carpet and broke into 3 big pieces and a bunch of shards, which Sammy immediately made a move to start mouthing. Ouch. I'm not that wedded to my things, but this one hurt a bit. Still, a wonderful day. </div></div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-55004026642633326482010-03-18T13:31:00.000-07:002010-03-22T12:08:15.926-07:00<div align="center"><strong>Daylight Savings You Kill Me</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 324px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5450074360695153314" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjj9WhDqpbqwvM2dD6HpYT-CQcvDHyw5konleOWWyTobgdKROFDuM2_IEdVr5Ahvr6UZpNOv-bMoPKn3BZ_MK5L2FAsg-HTObG-sSaCkVYKaf6xracQbZNREZz-L4TN2GMFwmt7Nw/s400/beulah&buttersincoop.JPG" /></div><div align="justify">I have an overly keen sense of time. For example, if I have a function and everyone is supposed to come at seven, I will generally be a dervish for the day coming right up to the 7:00 hour, and then I am ready, and waiting. I don't consider this an asset - more like a hindrance, because rarely is anyone else on my clock. That's one of the reason daylight savings time throws me so off kilter. I think we should always have the Monday's after DST off, so Monday I stayed at home and readjusted my internal directives.<br /></div><div align="justify"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnZXVcKSnZQIpUDOSKbZ5LdnmjA3I9dKfsPYCWVOD6jhAQGPEA07HQ0quHiwPmaV2Ywk1JuyqqDTUZYkfoROnhKTqKNYxNQcBNBJXiWHsUzy8vcu3EGpfHEylhF66nU8a_KoJGHg/s1600-h/buttersfence.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 388px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5450074348327974978" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhnZXVcKSnZQIpUDOSKbZ5LdnmjA3I9dKfsPYCWVOD6jhAQGPEA07HQ0quHiwPmaV2Ywk1JuyqqDTUZYkfoROnhKTqKNYxNQcBNBJXiWHsUzy8vcu3EGpfHEylhF66nU8a_KoJGHg/s400/buttersfence.JPG" /></a> The girls are happy with their extra time out. The cats are getting itchy and now Dinsdale is poised like a ninja every time I open the door. Fortunately, he's such a lard ass, he's relatively easy to catch when he does manage to Papillion his way out. <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFYwb9oYliPLuYRUBN3c0fH59_M3ZWJ257wEnXDl8s2WStqF0Bdo9nS1k6pDSUqonrq_cvqe_Ld0rmpnThZNgtNL-sqDrKh4DsZO-M2FW7sBUORbOPzbpRqCZhcuOUPTlHbi6H9g/s1600-h/vulcanforeplay1.JPG"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5450074337243165826" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFYwb9oYliPLuYRUBN3c0fH59_M3ZWJ257wEnXDl8s2WStqF0Bdo9nS1k6pDSUqonrq_cvqe_Ld0rmpnThZNgtNL-sqDrKh4DsZO-M2FW7sBUORbOPzbpRqCZhcuOUPTlHbi6H9g/s400/vulcanforeplay1.JPG" /></a> I discovered that CBS's web site has most of Star Trek online. This has made me very happy. I would have bought the series long ago but it's so inexplicably expensive. These shows ran non-stop on tv for so long, I think they're in my DNA. Ridiculously comforting, they're mostly just wonderfully comedic. The episode above, where Spock woos the Romulan leader so they can abscond with the Cloaking Device: she gets up to change into something 'more womanly', and leaves the room in her tunic that hits her ass and that's pretty much all she's wearing, and comes back in a full length gown. Above is a little Vulcan foreplay.<br />It's the little things, people. </div>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18324069.post-10677390183918477832010-03-11T12:46:00.000-08:002010-03-11T13:29:49.060-08:00<div align="center"><strong>So much for Spring</strong><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 269px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5447480728043780546" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjvTrmZnV_0aRdAjEWRt_ezCi7LpbdDwCL_SPr0Oned4-eq3JiBzd0MB1pqq_RilTtxgSgk3foNiOYYNxqNuGyjtnz7fee1_b20Hv5udE8yQxGOrZrEbdGa8cAzkL-M1ZQNhz28Lw/s400/chickenman.jpg" /></div><div align="justify">It's rainy and windy and cold and while I have to shift gears from la-la-la-it's <em>Spwingtibe</em>! I'm also a little relieved, as I produce very little - last year, nuttin' - painting when the weather is nice. I'll be happy if it's crappy all March and April - well, maybe a few weekend respites in there for chicken-hanging-outing. Right now I'm working on a piece of Ester. It's an image I'm determined to get right, so I've decided to paint 3 more when this one is done (chances are, when this one is done, I'll go: oh, hell, that's good enough). But the current one is called Ester Spring and I want to do the rest of the seasons. We'll see.<br />Listening to NPR this morning, the lead in was something to do with a discovery about chickens in Scotland. I'm always of two minds when I hear anything about chickens: one the one hand, it can be some lovely benign story, or it can be some kind of horror. This one wasn't. They found that chickens in Edinburgh were exibiting male and female characteristics, right down the middle. These abberations, which appear in nature, are called gynandromorphs (not hermaphrodites, as I'd thought). First, I thought of this:</div><p align="justify"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 267px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 225px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5447487912835567666" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHzUU-pUR5Odxdo0qFG5czieREeHiry9d9z100fr-0gU9_pyvsMkI_myVScGiPFHusWN3-IZ4nfUxLzKIJbzq2Pg0NKgRePIZeeJIu8rzbheW0hi8t7_LV4Kn_B5-cUgBh7Fj6DA/s400/Colors_of_contention.jpg" /></p><p align="justify">Then this:</p><p align="justify"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 335px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 208px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5447487918932277698" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgoGl5Dk6YAKBJqDNQW9XXKqYOdUkF-WDDzXsrFtLVC003IVinG2067pj5DTP4SYjEkmhybyRChe1Kn-ifFZDkTqnozBkosl0qQMPtUO00E5m9kk_4kTtQTFcr1a97KrGFrIa-c1A/s400/half+man+half+woman+freaks.jpg" /></p><p align="justify">But he/she looks like this. Wattle long on one side, hen-sized on the other. <img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5447487928915580866" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhz0acHKAHcEdj8lVdSqnAQ3JLeGrfxdwt3dxRjfT2kFwKWKbb1V2uj2TlPCzZzZAgO6NU_w44fAQZu1g-pO9wZWIRtOtivfbLsR7oMVMrOzoW_pTF0ilGeAemIwsOl7X5R-jZK4Q/s400/boygirlchicken.jpg" /> The story is <a href="http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=124529630"><span style="color:#ffcc33;">here</span></a>: it also includes a slide show of gynandromorphs.</p>Ester's Feathershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11914177114972281867noreply@blogger.com0